The post below is basically just me giving myself a pep talk stating my game plan for the next 6 weeks to further enhance my healing process. A reaffirmation to my self if you will, as to where I have been, where I am and where I hope to be at the end of this, while ultimately, I surrender it all to God and his infinite wisdom to direct my paths. I am FINALLY at peace with all of this.
I believe in healing miracles, but I also know that God works through doctors,nurses and all sorts of medical professionals and thank God for THEM. :)
"Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God." - anonymous
So, while I do believe that God can do anything, effecting any outcome - I also believe that he gives us common sense to do the best that we can. Even though I know God "can" drive the car - I am pretty certain that he expects me to keep my hands on the wheel when "I" am driving. :)
I don't know if there are variations in a double j stent - but this last stent was a jj stent)
YEEHA! Just a very HAPPY girl to be free - to hopefully have forever to never need to be stented again. A girl can dream! :)
I am so very grateful for the physician and group that has taken care of me this past year. I know that he has done everything possible to facilitate the healing of this ureteral stricture. If it weren't for the fact that I strongly believe in confidentiality in an arena where other people don't have a choice in what I as a blogger have to say - I would tell the world to go to that office. (Ha! like the WORLD reads my blog!)
The point that I am at now, is that the ureteral stent that was in me for the last 11 weeks was removed yesterday and after 6 weeks, I will go for another Lasix mag 3 renal scan that will help determine whether or not the ureteral stricture is remaining open. Both surgeons feel that based on recent films/procedures (CAT with contrast 3mm cut, upright KUB most recent OR retro cysto along with my stated symptoms) that surgery may be indicated.
My med hx has been such this past year, that I have consistently felt considerable discomfort post- stent removal and then get relief when stented again. I have been resistant to surgery. I am praying and believing that I will not have to have surgery. I am not going to utter one negative word to even one person, not even my husband or closest of friends and definitely not the doctors about any discomfort that I could potentially have - not - one - word. I could vent. They would listen. But - I will not. I do have an excellent support system, for whom I am certain there is an extra special place in heaven for listening and loving me throughout this past year. You KNOW who you are -Thank you very much!. :)
I REFUSE to give in to any symptoms whatsoever - rien, nichts, nada, niente - NOTHING - no, not one. So there! I am going to fight this on every level that I possibly can.
In one of my recent comments on my site, I stated what my game plan is. I don't recall verbatim, but I am planning on doing everything that I can think of to nurture my mind, body and spirit.
I have already been implementing better food choices . (The closer to how God made it the better!) I am going to drink aloe juice because of it's healing properties. I have had a gallon sitting in fridge for over a year. Health food store said it lasts indefinitely but as of next week I am going to use a different brand that someone has researched and feels it is the best choice. I should have been doing that all along - don't know why I didn't?
Going back to the Y. I had hoped to get back there in January but just not doable with the stent. I CAN'T WAIT TO SWIM and also to participate in a specific fitness program they offer! I want to build my cardiovascular system up along with overall fitness.
Funny movies and programs as much as possible. (The Norman Cousins thing)
Go BACK to church. Anyone that knows me knows that I DO have a really strong faith in God, but I have never been strong in church attendance. I actually do belong to a fantastic church that really loves God and loves all people that go there. There is a lot I could say here about my relationship with God but that could be another post entirely and perhaps will at some point. Suffice it to know that I have indeed experienced healing miracles (yes - miracles) in my own life and God's favor throughout my life. Having said that - I do have to wonder how it is that I set God aside this past year - when I needed him most? So - there are many things that I can be doing in the faith realm that I haven't been - but am going to again. This prodigal daughter has returned. :)
SLEEP! I am someone who burns the candle at both ends. I KNOW how important sleep is and yet I persist in not getting enough. Even God rested! I heard a doctor say once that she goes to bed at 10 pm when ever possible because the more hours one goes to bed before 2am the better it is to help prevent cancer. I don't know if that is true, but our bodies do need time to rejuvenate for various reasons.
I have many, many things that I want to accomplish over the next 6 weeks - some practical and some fun and I have some people that I want to help. Every day, is truly a gift from God and I embrace this time with a joie de vivre!
Having said all of the above, if the test along with symptoms indicates the need for surgery - then I will tell the surgeon to have his staff book the OR for my case. No more indecision. No more life on hold. Done deal. I will at that point know that the only way past this is to go through it.
I do know that all things work together for good. They happen for a reason that isn't always obvious at the time but we then come through stronger and better equipped to help ourselves and others in the future.
So, all prayers welcome. Also - I am open to any suggestions as to how I can possibly further the facilitation of my healing process.