Sunday, September 5, 2010

About the Surgery

I usually write any posts about my urology experiences in this blog. However, this time I decided to share my heart about the reconstructive urology surgery in the Positive Medical Blog so that I can update new readers on what has happened with me these last few years as a urology patient.

I have decisions to make. It would seem the big one has been made for me.

I really do hate not having control over this.

Saturday was my turn around day in beginning to accept the inevitable.

The post is called: Reality to Fantasy ...Sharing My heart About Surgery.

Shhh ..don't tell anyone ..but I'm still hoping for the 11th hr and 59th second miracle. :)


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SeaSpray said...
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SeaSpray said...

Hi me Lonely - Thank you. Have a great day! :)

Dr. Deb said...

WOw, seeing that xray of the stent made me cringe. My sister had one for two months - and my Dad lives with one daily (dialysis). My heart goes out to you for such a brave post.

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SeaSpray said...

Thank you Dr Deb. Brave post? Thank you for referring to it as a brave post. I feel concern that I look like I am being a baby, whining and also a difficult patient. I even feel guilt for not being stoic ..but I do plan to get there. I know people go thru much worse.

I remember that you mentioned your Dad lived with an indwelling stent. That must be awful. At least I have gotten a break over time. Yet ..when I think of the surgery ..I think ..well ..maybe I could do that ..but they say I am too young to live with an indwelling stent as a permanent solution. (Gotta love em for that statement. ;) I really don't want to. I just don't want the surgery either. But ..all the decisions are being made for me. Powerless is a horrible feeling when you don't want to surrender control really is.

But I guess it is in the ...letting go ...that peace comes.

hard to do tho.

For me it will come down to giving it all to God and resting in the knowledge that he is in control and all things work out for good. I have the head knowledge ..but trying to get my heart to follow.

And I even have the heart knowledge ..but I guess they have to connect and unify into my plans going forward.

I am sorry your dad and sister go thru this but at least only 2 mos for your sister. Hopefully that is all she will ever need for stenting.

Dr Deb - thank you very much for your empathy, sharing (I always wish I knew of more uro patients), and kind words. :)

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

This is really a very informative post. Thanks for sharing information about urology in this post. God bless you all always.

SeaSpray said...

Hi Mel - I am glad you liked the post. And as always ..thank you for your kind words and God bless you too. :)