Wednesday, June 27, 2012
That happened to me once. I remember being on my side ...being upset - gagging and the low florescent lighting in the room ...or it was from the computer screens ...not sure ...and then being back in my area again ...feeling just fine. May tomorrow's procedure be uneventful ...please.
I'm already anticipating being NPO at midnight.
I've previously written that I get all squirelly at the idea of not being able to drink water and will become instantly thirsty ...even though I will have consumed so much water just prior to midnight.
That is what I have learned to do to be sure I am hydrated as much as possible for any surgery/procedure. I had been such a frequent flier to the OR thanks to urology issues that I actually developed a pre-OR home routine. (I've written about it elsewhere.) Drink all day/night to be so hydrated that I won't be thirsty. Just before midnight I drink down about 32 oz of water. Don't care about the food ...but cannot stand thirst. I am just like the person who feels the tickle before even being touched ...I get thirsty at just the thought of water deprivation. I know ...WEIRD. And I REALLY want that forbidden fruit ...um water. Totally psychological on my part. Sometimes I am like a camel during the day and don't drink ...either because I get busy and forget or I don't want to think abut bathrooms when I'm out ...and I don't feel like I will die of thirst ...even if I am thirsty. And ...I know ...that behavior is not advisable if trying to avoid kidney stones. At least I'm not as bad as I used to be with that.
Anyway ...earlier this week, I was in the dental chair ...feeling tense and miserable because I loathe having work done at the dentist and I was thinking how I would rather have the EGD. And I hate that too... because I remember gagging when I had one before. Still ...better than the dentist office ...I'm just sayin. Heck ...I'd almost rather have a in clinic ureteral stent removal over being in the dental chair. Although, the operative word there is "almost" ...but, not really.
So ..why the EGD? I've had stomach pain since last November and finally decided to get checked out earlier this month. It was intermittent and I thought maybe it was just having medication and coffee on empty stomach in the morning. But, even when I realized it wasn't ...I didn't act on it because it was not all the time. And I forgot to tell him when I had a routine colonoscopy in December.
But then by spring ...I began having nausea every day and by May ...all day and feeling intestinal... so much so that I was concerned about attending son's graduation - but ..thankfully ...no problem that day.
It reminded me of how I had nausea every day ...all day in March 2009 until June 2009. I thought it may've had something to do with my inadvertently drinking my mother's cat's water ..that I picked something up.
(I know - I never did put that post up. I had forgotten about that funny story. I only remembered recently when reviewing copies of my med recs from my retired pcp that I picked up from new pcp's office. What must my new pcp have thought when he read my former pcp's letter to the gastro doc referring to my drinking the cat's water? And what must the gastro doc have thought when he read it? And then ...I referred to it when I went in to see him in a recent follow up visit and I saw him holding back a grin and his eyes betraying his amusement as well. Why don't doctors just laugh? It is so much more weird when you see they want to ...but are holding it in. I'd laugh with them. :)
Anyway ...back in March 2009, former pcp did have me do a parasite test which came back negative. Tested for ovarian cancer ...also negative. Suggested I have a colonoscopy to gastro doc, but because everything functioning normally, and I wasn't due for one yet since I had a normal routine one in 2006 ...he didn't have me do that. He thought that because I had been experiencing stress with profound emotions over my mother's decline in health and all that entailed, during the last 8 months of her life and then her dying that April ...that it might be emotional in origin. He said that he felt it in his stomach when his parents died. I did get better ...until last November ...except in November ...the pain - like stomach spasms, was new. Stomach pain that did pass after a few minutes.
He recently thought maybe it was IBS. I also explained that my friend of 52 years, Iris ...died last October. And that I have other stresses/concerns in my life as well. I will say ...it is interesting that it started in November ...only a month after her passing.
He had me take samples of Nexium ...one each morning. The nausea left ...for the most part and so did the intestinal part. Not 100% ...but much better ...until recently. He decided to do the EGD because it hurt when he pressed on my stomach above my navel. Sometimes it hurts ..like a tender discomfort feeling.
If this is stress related then I have got to focus on more positive things more often. I KNOW what to do ...but ...I guess I still feel too much ...emotionally speaking. And I have some wonderful blessings in my life. Then the negative is significant and I think I always have this undercurrent of things I have concerns about. I keep a lot of things in that I don't discuss. Wish I could ...but, I can't.
See ...even now ...thinking about a more recent event ...I feel my stomach churning ...tense churning. I never used to be that way. And I have been through a thing or two in my life. So ...why now? Why are things getting to me now? I know in the physical and spiritual ...I have to reject negativity and embrace spiritual, emotional and physical healing. All things are possible with God. I really do believe that.
Anyway ...if anyone feels inclined to do so ...your prayers and positive thoughts are appreciated. :)
It's now 01:40 and finally going to bed. The down side to drinking so much water just before midnight is that you might as well sleep in the bathroom. NOW ...I'd appreciate a foley catheter. ;)
And a big ice cold glass of water. :)