Monday, December 30, 2013

Patient's Remorse

I'm having patient's remorse for bunch of reasons.  *Sigh*

Aside for some goofy things I did ..also about somethings else.

Urodoc is so good to me ...  just saying.  :)

And now dinner almost done  - hamburgers and fries and a veg.  All 3 are staying over tonight and we are watching March of the Wooden Soldiers.  I am excited to watch that with the little ones because they haven't seen it.  Have something fun planned for tomorrow too.

I very much want to write in here.  I miss blogging and hope to get back into it soon.  I haven't lost my writing mojo ..just the time factor ...allll month.

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Just Go SeaSpray ...GO to the MALL ...Now!

I can't believe I am having to go to the MALL ..NOW ..on Christmas eve and then to Costco ...on Christmas eve.  I don't mind local shopping - that's even fun ...feeling the hustle and bustle with last minute preparations ...but it's home territory.  This Christmas season has not been a Hallmark one ..yet.  I can't believe I am here writing this when I have to go.  I am already praying for a good parking spot.  On the up side ...I just heard on the radio that stores are already putting their day after Christmas prices up ..which causes me to think I really should shop and get the best bargain.  The problem has been knee pain (fortunately I get orthovisk injections Thursday - YAY!)..or I would've done this last week and why I decided I will just do gift certificates - get in and get out.  They all will still have something else to open - small ..but something to open.  I love opening presents and feel that while practical cards aren't as fun if they are the only gift.  On the other hand - people can then buy whatever they want.  I don't think I've shopped at the mall on Christmas eve since my twenties.  Well car warmed up - time to go.  Well the Carol of the Bells music now in my head should keep me going at a good pace.   :)

Update:  I just breezed all the way to the mall while traffic was all backed up coming back this way.  I felt a bit more Christmassy when I saw little snowflakes ..hoping for snowy for Christmas and listening to the festive holiday music.  I prayed just before pulling in to Penney's parking lot asking for a little Christmas miracle to please park close. I was the 4th car away from the building and bear the bathrooms - which I like.  Except I was withholding fluids and food since just so I wouldn't have to tinkle and also be sure the stomach bug I had yesterday/last night stayed away.  Thankfully that passed!  I also prayed for minimal lines and I just breezed through.  I was only able to shop for one gift and then I did have to go to certificates.  I was only buying 3, but if I bought 4 I got an additional 25.00 off until Feb.  And of course got an extra 20% off the purchases.  I also got myself a couple of things in the same dept.  Robe and slippers for when I have knee surgery in Feb.  Then I breezed through Costco and was thrilled to see it snowing when I was on my way home.  But then I ended up white knuckling the steering wheel because it was coming down so hard I could hardly see and the roads were covered and it was hard to know if I was in my lane.  I kept hitting that noisy side of road part.  Good thing though because other cars passing me were very close to my side.  After I slid ...I put my flashers on to keep people away from me and maybe alert them to slow down.  I even shifted to lower gears.  And I prayed.  There was an accident involving several cars in one of the local towns.  Then when I hit the 2nd major hwy - that was water.  Obviously they had salted on that.  I thought about calling J to say I was alright, but I had to stop at a neighbors to pick up part of a present.  When I walked in and told him how stressful it was driving home - he was surprised because he didn't even know it was snowing.  ha ha ...and I thought he'd be worried.  OH ...and I had to drive in the dark with my SUNGLASSES on because my regular glasses were MIA.  Turns out Myles took them last night and Mr SeaSpray found them on the floor when I was gone.  Anyway ...all nestled in ...comfy and cozy but still have to decorate the tree, wrap and prepare for company tomorrow.  I am so glad there is a bit of snow on the ground.  Falalalalala!  I realize ...I didn't even get to do a Christmas post yet.  This year would've been titled, "Saga of the Christmas Lights."

**And I'm not beating myself up anymore (previous post), but I still can't wait to apologize.

I hope everyone has a wonderfully Merry Christmas!!  And if you do have to work ...I hope your time working goes the way you like it to and you still enjoy yourself and experience Christmas blessings.

Monday, December 23, 2013

Beating Myself Up!

I was a HALF hr late for my uro appt and couldn't be seen tonight (which I certainly understand) and I feel awful!  The worst part is I hope this doctor that I respect so much ...doesn't think I don't value his time and respect him and that he knows something must've been going on and to say it was a challenging day would be an understatement.  I should have  CANCELLED!  Still beating myself up and it's been 3 hours now.  This will bother me all Christmas week until I see him next Monday to apologize face to face.  And while I've made some goodies for the Christmas basket - began Saturday - I couldn't get that done either and so trying to decide if should leave tomorrow or bring in next week.  I could just use what I have and bake again on Sunday and won't be all this rushing around.  They won't even be there all day tomorrow or on Christmas and so it will sit.  I'll figure it out.

I did leave this awesome (was a lot of work) holiday spice bread for them ...but I am sure he would've preferred a punctual patient.  *SIGH* 

I feel like walking shame ..because this is the doc that has done so much for me ...gone the extra mile so many times ..through thick and thin.  I feel so terrible. :(

The receptionist was sweet and told me some other patients were having a hard time with appts too.  I wonder if that's true.  2 wrongs don't make a right tho.

Sunday, December 22, 2013


So ... we got a call from Costco last night, informing us that the cookies we purchased (and ate), recently ...contained moths ...or moth parts ...but that eating them wouldn't hurt humans.

Protein anyone?  :)

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Another Loss This Past Friday - Connection? :(

Picture of the Snow Reflecting the Blue Sky
Photo Credit

Last Friday ...I had an enjoyable visit with my friend in her store, as I purchased some more Christmas items.  (One of which I am giving in my uro office Christmas basket.:)  Then on the ride home ...I got all sentimental as I was nearing the lake I lived in with my aunt and uncle in my teenage years, until I got married at 20.  I decided that I would drive in and drive past the house we lived in and some other places in the lake.  I was all sentimental with a capital "S", missing them and the rest of my relatives on my maternal side.  Especially Mom too.  I also remembered school days, beach days, and how beautiful and picturesque that lake is in the snow ...even though it was dark then.  It was sad to see the people that live there now don't keep the house as nice as my uncle did.

I've always felt this profound sense that if only I could lift some time dimensional veil ...I could see it all again right back there in time experiencing life in my past again.  It feels so close ...and yet ...of course I can't go back in time.

And I don't want to live in the past.  I want to be in my present enjoying the dear family and friends in my life now ...but it would be nice to visit back there once in awhile.  It would be nice to be able to show the people that moved on ...just how much you loved them.  But I guess they knew and know that.  And oh how I'd love to be able to talk to my Scottish grandparents as an adult hear their stories about coming to this country.  But God in his infinite wisdom didn't allow for that. And I guess if we could do that then we'd alter our future and I guess we wouldn't want to risk ruining that either.

Interestingly must exist tho ...because God can see the past, present and future simultaneously.  But ...I digress.  This post isn't about time travel.

So ...when I pulled into my driveway ...I decided to continue on to the houses in the back.  It has been bothering me that my friend Marian's house (she died in the spring - unexpectedly!), is dark and unlived in ever since her husband abandoned the house.  :(  It is the first year that there are no festive Christmas lights on it 20 years.  One year her first husband even had merry Christmas in lights on their roof!  I miss her fence and windows being all lit up.  I know how she loved getting a tall Christmas tree just like I do.  I miss seeing her little green car driving past our house.  Mostly ...I miss her hearty laughter.  Since last spring, it has been bothering me every time I look back at her house and see how dark it is at night ...but especially now that it's Christmas.  It is surreal to me.  Her death was so unexpected.

Then when I came in the house ...I found out that my childhood friend's ex husband died that morning.  They think he passed peacefully while watching TV.  I was shocked!  And immediately upset.  Even though ...I rarely saw him after their divorce.  I remembered how I first met him in the summer of 69.  He was I's new boyfriend.  We spent the day at the beach that day ...all of us frolicking in the waves.  Some years later ...I was their maid of honor in their wedding and the next year she was my matron of honor and he was an usher in our wedding.  Social dates, babies and raising children - we shared it all until they got divorced.  then ..I guess you end up going with the one you were friends with and don't see the other spouse much.  That is what happened with us, anyway.

He was a good, kind and sweet man who loved his family dearly. And he was quite creative too.  Wood carving ...even made a huge carved wooden sign for a local establishment years ago.  He did some writing and created his own cartoon characters that he had copyrighted, although never sold.  I wonder what would've happened today if he self published?

Even though we lost touch and I only saw him at their children's weddings ...I cried as soon as I got the news.  Not only did I cry for him ...but it catapulted me right back to missing Iris.  She's been dead two years now.  Hard to believe.  I rarely cry now ...but I remember her almost every day.  I know he never stopped loving her.  I imagine the two of them are up there in heaven talking away - and now ...they'll be watching their growing family from above.  Their daughter will be having her second baby in May.  Sadly ...Iris never got to see her granddaughter or 2nd grandson.  At least ...not while down here.

I wish Iris and I could be sharing the joy of our growing families, but it wasn't meant to be , I guess.

Anyway ...I think it is so weird out of the blue ...while driving home ...I got all wistful and sentimental and felt drawn to go past my family home and then my neighbor's ...knowing they were all in heaven now.  It's not something I would typically do during Christmas because I am all excited about the holidays.  And yes ...I know we miss loved ones during the holidays ...but this was different.  I was feeling something in the cosmic sense.  Or I think I was.  I wonder if something in me ...somehow knew that someone else had died?  Maybe I'm being silly.  But I can't help but wonder if I was sensing something on another level?

P.S.  After writing this post, I heard a news report that said there were 63 car accidents in NJ yesterday because of black ice.  So I made the right call in not going ...but I sure do wish I could have.

I don't even know why I'm writing this.  I guess because ..well for one thing ...I wish I could've gone to the memorial.  But with all this snow and freezing temperatures, I was not at all comfortable driving down to the funeral home alone tonight.  If it was up here ...I would've gone in a heartbeat.  I know I would've been the only person from their Mom's side to go.  And I wanted to pay my respects to their Dad and be a support for them.  I wrestled all day with it, but when I heard an afternoon weather/travel report, I decided it wouldn't be a good idea.

I'll find another way to show my support.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Steamy, Frustrated and Obsessing ...With a Bit of Mojo Mixed in :)

Good morning all!

It is frigid outside and I am just so HOT! I was so cold when I went to bed that I put two quilts on the bed. (Mr SeaSpray can sleep through anything.) Then around 06:30, I got so HOT ..I kicked everything off and have been ridiculously hot ever since. I swear steam was coming off my body when I let the dog out. It just won't stop. And now I'm about to make the kids some eggs and toast. The up side of this is that I can save energy by leaving the stove off and just hold my head over the pan and cook the eggs from above. Just saying.

Anyway ...have a blessed day! 

Oh ...and I obsessed with a capital "O" in the wee hours of the morning over something ...obsessed with a capital "O" like never before ...and  I still am!  Oh ...and I'm FRUSTRATED ...okay FRUSTRATED and ...OBSESSING with all caps ... and have been since late Monday night ...although it went to a whole new level in the wee hours of the morning today.  Have you ever wanted something to just be a certain way and so you keep staring at it as if  STARING could magically transform something into your ideal?  Well's not working.  Post to follow. 

 I keep writing little posts and am in such a mood to write.  I hope I'm not putting too many up in a short span of time.  But it does feel good to have my writing mojo back.  :)

Tuesday, December 10, 2013


They say things come in threes and so here is my 3rd mini post. (I'm on a blogging roll and so if interested ...scroll down to follow:) I hate to be so negative after posting two lighthearted posts but I just have to ask case someone feels inclined to answer.

How is it possible ...that a man can murder his wife ...shooting her in the temple at 7:30 in the morning ...while she is sleeping ...and then be allowed to live in his house ...and then within that first year ...have his tracking device removed and be allowed to go where he wants he can still work?  A-N-D ...remain a free man for 5 1/2 years at which point he finally has his trial ...but then after confessing to murdering his wife (in a plea bargain), will only have to serve NINE years in jail?

He killed her in cold blood.

Nine years in jail.

That's it.

How is JUSTICE served in that decision?

And is he a risk to others after he gets out?


Brain Freeze (Revised)

Now I know the definition of a real brain freeze.  That is when you are outside in FRIGID weather without a hat from 11pm until 2 am, last night.  I was out there so long that I was getting  GOT a headache.  Of course it also could've been from the uncooperative Christmas lites I was stringing in the freezing cold of night while the rest of my family was nestled toastily (I know it's not a word ...but I like it), in their beds.  I did go inside briefly - intermittently get more lights and drink a cup of tea and to tinkle  Oh and did this SeaSpray mentioned that she tinkled ICE CUBES?  Just saying was freezing out and so was I.  And I'm pretty sure the tea turned to ice tea on it's way down.  Anyway ...when I finally finished I was walking in the house ..I was wondering if my brain really was getting cold ...being that my head is an extremity too.  I mean it seems to me that the skull could get cold and then what?  I mean if it's really really cold ...for a long time. Heck could've flash frozen FOOD on my THIGHS when I got back inside for the night!  They were soooo ice cold when I undressed were my cheeks and nose.  Brrr ...this kind of weather causes a SeaSpray to be so very THANKFUL for HEAT!

Monday, December 9, 2013

Just Call me Trigger

Eh ...I thought a picture of Trigger was better than a middle finger.  :) It's now resolved ...thanks to a cortisone injection in my hand.  Of all fingers tho was my MIDDLE finger.  Somehow just seemed obscene every time my MIDDLE finger popped out.  I guess it could be a good excuse if I did want to do that to someone.  OOPS!  That darned trigger finger of mine!  :)  But the truth is I only gave the finger once in my entire life.  Suffice it to know that I was p-r-e-t-t-y mad - obviously ...if I felt driven to that.  It was a cloudy Friday morning in September, 1993.  The person known to use that gesture was taken aback.  In retrospect ...I don't know if it was funny or scary that I did that.  But sure did make a statement.  :)  Actually doing that would be akin to Mary Tyler Moore doing it I suppose laughable ..or scary.  :)

But back to this trigger of mine.  It began this past July.  I just woke up one morning and my middle finger just popped open from the closed position.  It didn't hurt, but was an annoying feeling you know you'd rather not have.  I mean it is so much nicer when all your body parts don't call attention to themselves ..right?  then you know they're working because they go under the radar.  When something is wrong ...they get your attention.  Well ...unless you are thinking about said body parts ...but then that is a different kind of attention.  But that's normal.

A-n-y-w-a-y ...I thought it was just some kind of arthritis.  But I don't have it anywhere in my body except in my knees.  I never thought to tell the orthopaedic doctor when I was there.  But then when I went in for the shoulder issue - now 100% resolved - I mentioned the finger.  he said I should've mentioned it sooner because the shots aren't as effective if patients wait.  Fortunately for me worked and it didn't even hurt that much.

Oh and my supportive friends?  They laughed.  Ha ha!. :)

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Almost and Fa la la la la la la la ...

Oh ...and regarding the Jerk face comment below - I am cooling down.  As soon as I can respond without any anger - I will be getting back to Jerk Face.  Ooops!  Not quite yet ...but soon.  I only used one Jerk Face ..oops!  Make that two.

On a more positive note - We just got a beautiful ...tall ...very tall Frazier Christmas tree.  I'll come back about that.  I've always got a Christmas post.  What I don't have is much time theses days and when I do sometimes I let something else steal it vs blogging.

And now ... I HAVE to go to Costco.  It is just ridiculous that I haven't been there since October.  For one thing I like to add the chocolate liqueurs to the basket I make up for the uro office and now I hope they still have them.  But we need everything.  Imagine going to the store and you have to buy everything.  There isn't a cart large enough - not even those big orange flat carts they have.  Neither is my bank account.  On the upside one way they close at 6:30 ...and so I can't spend as much.  that being said ...I am so honed in on my usual stuff that I can get a lot anyway.  I just can't peruse the aisles for other things.  Although ...I'm hoping there is a neat, quality truck for Myles.  he LOVES trucks.  :)  Plus ...I know they shut the doors at 6:30, but they don't shew the people out until a bit later and on top of that's Christmas time ...which means they will be backed up anyway.  And they are more lenient.  I know how to work the Costco system.  :)  Still ...I will definitely have to reign myself in when down there.  I do so love that store!  :)

Anyway ...I'm also thinking that since it is frigid outside ...I can maybe head over to the Christmas tree shop because the food will stay cold in the trunk.  Depends though because I did a lot of standing while watching the trees being danced around.

I may hate myself later for finishing this hot cup of Hazelnut coffee and now heading out.  Oh well.

Gosh ...I just LOVE Christmas season!!!

Ha ha - I'm still brushing pine needles off of me ...and I wreak of pine.

'Tis the season ...

Fa la la la la la  la  la ...

God Frbid! (Nurse's 12 Days of Christmas:)

Photo: A nurse's version of the original song!! ;)

Clever!  This is actually fun to sing - but since I do believe there is power in our words - I would steer clear of singing it while at work.  Just saying.  :)

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Jerk Face!

What a JERK FACE..JERK MOUTH ..JERKIEST JERKY JERK ..JERK FACE neighbor!  I'm still so MAD at him I could spit nails at him!  He's an IDIOT too!  Just saying.  JERK!  JERK FACE!

Sorry about being so negative.  I don't like feeling this way.  I don't like calling people names but I admit I am venting and it feels good in the moment.

No doubt I'll get blogger's remorse when I'm in bed but I don't care.  I'm venting and it stays.

Besides ...he's a JERK FACE!

Saturday, November 30, 2013

A SeaSpray Morning (ABISHED! :)

I didn't do it and nobody's sayin otherwise.  Capish?

Earlier this past week ...Wren and My had just arrived early one morning and before their coats were off ...Myles asked me what we were having for dinner. Then Wren asked for her usual order of eggs and toast. I decided to surprise them with bacon. I let them help me break up the egg yolks and stir in the bowl. They also add a little salt and pepper - but I hold their hands too ...for that.  :) They know the routine and per my request ...eagerly chose their own place mats to use on the table.

 For some reason, they chose to wait at the table instead of running off to play or watch a show on TV.   But breakfast was taking longer to cook because of the bacon factor.  So, they also chose to fuss with each other since they were sitting side by side.  (They usually sit on opposite sides.)  So,  I had to intervene. And once that little skirmish was resolved, I again admonished them that they had to sit properly in the chairs and not bother each other.

 Then as I often do with them when I am making it clear ...I said, "Capish?!"   It's our thing (I never did it with the boys or their older sister), and they know that when I say that in such a final ..although positive tone ...I expect that will be it.  Situation resolved when they say it back. Then I know we all understood each other.   And they always smile and then run off to something else.

So, Wren responded with, "Capish."   My usually says, "Abish."   Ha ha - so cute!)  But he just did not want to this time.  (he can be feisty and stubborn sometimes.  If you show anger - he gets worse.  So, I usually look for upbeat ways to get my point across.  And if necessary ...he gets a time out until he apologizes, etc. and he will go sit in the green chair and wait.  :)  And this time, I wanted him to acknowledge me and so I repeated, "Capish?!" 

 Nope! He was not gonna answer me this time.

I put the spatula down ...and transformed into the "Capish monster." Yes ...yes I did. Can we chalk it up to post (Insert that "M" word here) hormones (Did I just admit to The "M" word ...never mind post? ;) and leave it at that? All I'm saying is I can blame everything on hormones now - even if not true.  :)  And this Capish monster was wearing a  plush hot pink robe with Scotties and snowballs on it.  Certainly not my prettiest robe (although cute - says me) ...but I'm always drawn to Scotties and it's soft and warm.  Besides ...everyone knows that I was a fashion plate in that robe by Capish monster standards.  Just saying.  ;)

So ...from the other side of the kitchen ...arms up an in a silly monster voice only a girly in pink Capish monster can do, I said "C-A-P-I-S-H!" ... while walking slowly across the kitchen.  I repeated it until I got over to them. They were laughing so hard. When I got over to My, I said it really loud while I tickled his neck. He just squealed with delight, with Wren laughing heartily by his side. 

 Then I went back to the stove.

Myles wanted me to do it again, but I said I had to finish making their breakfast. He asked again and I said I couldn't. Then he hollered out, "ABISH ME!" Ha ha! Of course I had to then. So ...we played the "ABISH Me" monster game a couple more times, except now they were both laughing and dove under the table each time I walked over to them.

Then later that day ...during dinner, My looked up at me and sweetly said, "I like the way you cook." Awww ...he melted my heart ...right then and there. And Wren is so funny, because she always asks me what we're having for dinner and then will often say things like, "I don't like chicken.", or "I don't like carrots.", but she really does. I always say, "Yes you do like chicken." (or whatever) ...she'll respond with, "No I don't.", but she usually eats all the things she tells me she doesn't like.

Kids are just so darned CUTE! 

Especially when they are being ...ABISHED.  :)

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Even the Burned, Badly Iced Cookies ... (Thanksgiving Post)

Growing Deep Roots of Gratitude

For the first time in 38 years, I am missing the Thanksgiving celebration.  This cold that I thought wasn't a big deal ...has turned into a miserable one and so I stayed home.  I was going to go ...suck it up and just go ...but then I thought that might be selfish because my m-i-l is 83 going on 84 and an aunt just turned 81 and I didn't want to risk sharing this stupid upper respiratory infection.  I also thought about wearing one of those blue masks that one wears when working with chemicals, but it probably doesn't contain germs like a medical one would. ?  Plus that would be weird.  And then I thought about just going over for dessert, but then that would be silly - to possibly expose others to this when I am there for just a short time.  So I am ..just home alone.  Normally I love quiet time, but this is such a special holiday to share with others.

So ...I decided to bake more pumpkin cookies ...just because I could.  I'm very careful about handling food normally and even more so if ill.  And I'm not sneezing or coughing.

Well probably wasn't my best idea bake when feeling this poorly.  I kept screwing up this recipe that I have been making for 36 years.

 The first batch wasn't baked long enough and the icing was wrong from the beginning because I lost moisture by cooking it higher in the beginning and everything I did to try to compensate just made it worse.  And it was too thin on the cookies.  I even tried re-baking them with the icing on - not good.

The second batch of cookies came out burned on the bottom and a bit on top.  They weren't even bad icing worthy.  It's the first time I used parchment paper and I thought if you use parchment paper that cookies won't burn on the bottom.  They burn.  And like I said the top did as well.  I must've gotten sidetracked when the timer was going off.

Then I again tried to fix the icing but it just didn't dissolve correctly and seemed granular.  It is supposed to be smooth.  So I tossed it out and started over.

 The second batch of icing was perfect.

The 3rd batch of cookies were exactly what these pumpkin cookies should be and were topped with the now perfect icing.

  The 4th batch of cookies burned on bottom again, but not on top.  I iced them anyway.

 I never make these mistakes this badly.  Oh and I really burned my forearm, underneath toward my elbow.  Of course every year my joke is know I'm baking as evidenced by the burns you see on my hands or arms.  :) This time the door came back up on me when I was getting the tray out.  

I am chalking up my baking debacle to the cold medicine in combination with feeling wiped out.

Anyway ...I don't have the stamina to bake the fresh batch I've mixed together and so that is covered in fridge and I'll do that tomorrow.

So, I watched a bit of TV news but then switched to QVC.  Hearing the show hosts talking made it seem like someone was here.  And now I want that burgundy Bose radio/music player with CD changer for only 600.00 (wish list), and I want that little smiley Scrub Daddy sponge.  Oh and the long, extending, bendable ...magnetized flashlight wand.  :)

 It feels lonely today.

 It is so weird for me to not be happy with alone time.

And then it hit me ...boy ...I am feeling lonely ...on this Thanksgiving Holiday because I'm not celebrating with my family or anyone.  But ...imagine how people feel during the holidays or most days because they don't have anyone in their lives to share love and experiences with.  

 I will see everyone in a few hours when they come back home.

And imagine what it is like for people who don't have any food to eat ...not even burned ...badly iced cookies.  They might even be so hungry that those cookies would taste pretty good.

And some of those people might not be able to get warm because they live without a heat source.  They don't have the option of getting toasty warm and cozy ...under a soft quilt in a heated home.  Just last night I was feeling so grateful to get out of frigid temperatures ...made even colder my the strong wind whipping around me.

Also, it is such an annoying and frustrating feeling when you have so many things you want to do and your body just laughs back at you and says ...NO! 

But I know this too shall pass.  It's just a stupid cold.  There are other people who wish a cold was all they had to contend with.

So... I am very grateful for my family and friends and the many blessings in our lives.  Thank you God ...for all of our blessings and even for how you bring us through the tough times.  Thank you for loving us and all that means to all of us ...even though we often forget ...or sadly don't know.

 Thank you.

Happy Thanksgiving and Happy Hanukkah! 

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

A Different Kind of Pardon :)


Okay more thing and THEN ..I'm going.

Earlier, I heard this guy who called into a radio show suggest that instead of the president pardoning two turkeys every year, he should pardon 2 people from Obamacare every year.  :)

Some Night Before Thanksgiving Thoughts

O-h-h-h-h! I really do not want to go out in the cold to shop right now!  I just blossomed with a cold and all I really want to do is get in my crazy ...warm jammies and watch a movie while on the couch ...on my back propped up with comfy pillows and covered with a toasty blanket and have comfort food and drinks.  But ...I've procrastinated all day ...and I'm procrastinating now ...and I have to go.

Today turned out totally different then what I was all excited for.  My cousin called last night to inform me that they weren't coming to see us/have dinner out, etc., because it was snowing in the Adirondacks and icy and when she did leave ...she just wanted to go straight through to their main destination.  I was so disappointed, although certainly do understand.  Then today ...while still disappointed ...I am also relieved since feeling awful now.

Fortunately, we are going to my m-i-l's tomorrow and so I am only making a few things here and don't have to do the who;e dinner.  I LOVE holidays and getting together with everyone, but I kind of wish I could just stay home.  Even more importantly ...I don't want to give this to her or anyone.  But ...I will go.  Ha!  Earlier, I noticed we have those blue masks you wear for staining, etc., and I thought about using it ..but it probably wouldn't work anyway.

Anyway, my cousin is calling me tomorrow night to see if we can make plans for on her way back ..maybe me meeting her halfway for breakfast somewhere.  I'm trying to talk her into just go home through this way.  Although, I know her son has to get back to college the next day.  Also ...I know that I too would want to go straight home after my trip when on a tight schedule.  If meant to be will work out.

Well I really do have to go.

I hope to blog later, but if I don't  ..I hope everyone has a wonderfully blessed Thanksgiving and can share time with loved ones.  And for those that have to work ...I hope your shift goes the way you like it to.

And I am very grateful for so many blessings in my life.  The very next blessing I will appreciate is coming back home with all the groceries and then getting all cozy.  :)

Monday, November 25, 2013

Embarrassing Gyne Exam :)

Glitter Foldable Flats

Ha ha!  I just have to share this.  :)

So there I was conversing with the PA when she decided to share a funny story with me.

She told me she has a friend with small children who had been rushing to get out the door and to her gyne appointment.  She had already showered but decided to freshen up one more time with a wash cloth.  Later ...during the exam ...the doctor commented, "Boy SURE cleaned up for me!"  She wondered what he was talking about, but didn't ask.

It wasn't until she began getting dressed that she saw glitter on her panties and it wasn't until she got home and wiped herself that she discovered there was a lot of glitter on her Bajingoland area.


I busted out loud laughing in the gyne office and the PA joined in with me.  Ha ha!  I wonder what the other patients or staff thought?

This was especially funny to me because of the  Bajingoland glitter posts and comments I wrote - specifically Turquoise Bajingoland glittter and the subsequent comments in this blog and others. ED Doc Scalpel (miss him and wish he still blogged) and ED Doc WhiteCoat have linked to those posts.  :)

I asked the PA what color and she didn't know, but I was picturing turquoise.

I don't know how she DIDN'T ask the doctor what he meant.  I would think most women take extra care for those exams and so at first it would be like the ultimate gyne compliment.  Okay maybe not the ultimate ..but up there.  Every ...most women want an A+ for hygiene in a Bajingoland appointment. 

My second reaction though would be ...wait ...what?  What were the other patients before me like that you're this enthusiastic?  And WHAT was my Bajingoland all the other times???

And I absolutely would've died a thousand deaths right in the exam room once I saw the glitter on my panties.  And I absolutely could NOT have left the office without getting a mirror out  ...and then on my way out explain to anyone that had ears that I didn't know and it must've been the kids ..honest.  I'd tell the mailman ...anyone.

But if I didn't realize fully what happened until I got home ...once I knew, I'd be on the phone so fast calling their office and if I had to leave a message ..well that would be tricky.  Because while everything in me would want to talk directly to the doctor to explain ...and hopefully not disappoint ;) ...I would not want to pull him out of his routine.  But can you imagine leaving this message with the receptionist ...or on their voice mail?

The doctor's face must've been priceless too ...when he first saw it.  i wonder what HE was thinking?  Funny he commented.  maybe he thought he should know ...compliment her efforts or something.  :)


Saturday, November 23, 2013

Dird :)

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Imagine if dogs could fly ...birds could bark ...and a DIRD could protect your house.  Just saying.  :)

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Chicken - Egg Joke and After Thought :)

I couldn't resist.  :)

I have felt I know the answer to that age old question. 

Actually it is the chicken.

Pure logic really.

Well for someone who believes God created man.

I'll spare you the details, but suffice it to know...

First created ...then procreated.

It's a pattern ...a God creative pattern of creation.

Btw ...I don't know why, but I am amused by their body shapes under the blanket.  :)

Friday, November 8, 2013

Bob Pics :)

Younger son (in Santa hat), put this up in his FB and so I just have to share his compilation of Bob pictures.  Oh my GOSH!  Boy do I really WANT another German Shepherd, but we do have our sweet Faith now ...a midsized GSD mix.  I don't want to say much about Bob in this little post, because someday ...I do want to write a series of posts about the different dogs we've had in our family since we first moved into our house.  Bob was for younger son when he was 12 and was the replacement for older son's sweet dog, Sprocket ...after she passed.  And we can never replace them ...but the new dog does help the healing process as they win you over with their own unique traits.

Anyway ...these pictures do not do him justice as he was a very handsome dog.

And I just LOVE the little puppy eyes/eyebrows and round puppy belly.  :)

I remember that I was so shocked when I was sitting at the table with my morning coffee when all of a sudden he decided to just hop up on a chair near me.  :)  He was still a teenager then - maybe a year old.  And he stayed there even when I left to get the camera.  Ha ha! 

So many captions could go under the picture of Bob sitting on the chair.  "What?  *I'm* human.  Isn't this what we're supposed to do with chairs - SIT on them?"

"Where's MY coffee?"

"Hey ...look what I can do!"

"Oh ...we're sitting at the table now ...OKAY!"

This was also his pack leader period.  Until we hired a trainer to come to the house ...Bob was ruling us

Maybe that infamous picture of all the dogs sitting around the table playing poker isn't so far fetched after all.  Who knows what they REALLY do when we aren't around.  Just saying. 

Anyway ...looking at his chair picture again ...I think Bob would look cool wearing a pair of aviator glasses.  Yes aviators would suit him.  :)

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Could They Really Do THIS?! (Link about law for doctors at bottom of post)

Could they really FORCE Physicians to comply?

What about rights and the personal freedom to choose as an American?  What about the fact that doctors are losing money to these programs now and this was an issue even before the ACA became the law of the land?

This all has to stop.  With all my heart and intellect I truly believe they should scrap most of the law ...except keep certain things that BOTH parties HAVE always AGREED on ...even though it is never reported that conservatives also agree about pre-existing conditions and some other things.  And then target specific areas to improve and also open up state borders so people can shop comparatively which will bring insurances prices down.

I do not have any faith in most politicians on both sides of the aisle.  Once upon a time, I did ...I really did.  But after witnessing the things I have over the last few years ...not so much.  We need someone who will put the good of the country and her people before their own personal agenda.  Is it possible?

Hope springs eternal.

And I want my doctors to experience professional blessings on many levels.  To not feel discouraged ...or like giving up everything they worked so hard to accomplish.  While I do like my new PCP that I've had for about 2 yrs and we are getting to know each other, I still very much miss my former PCP.  He had to give up his solo practice because of low insurance reimbursement and high overhead costs.  I think that was so sad and to quote one of his receptionists, it was "heart wrenching", saying goodbye to their patients. It was heart wrenching for me to say goodbye to him.  :(

HERE is the link to my post about losing my doctor.

They worked so hard at putting in all the years of training and not without personal sacrifices all along the way.  We need doctors.  We want to keep our doctors of choice.

I feel so very sorry for the people that have bonded with their docs and are now losing them.  It must be especially alarming for the elderly ..and/or the seriously chronically and terminally ill patients too.  And I'm thinking ...losing long term patients they've bonded with must be hard on the doctors too.

This is all so sad, frustrating and alarming.  Someone ...or something ...has to come along to turn this around for the better.  For the good of all of us, I pray good will come out of the bad we are witnessing now.

A LAW forcing doctors to accept Medicaid and Medicare patients?.

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Halloween Joke/Thoughts :)

The kids had cute costumes today.  One was a taco, another a jack-o-lantern and the youngest a cat.  :)  And ...they were the ONLY trick-or-treaters at our door.  So they got a whole lot of candy.  We don't have many children around here now, but I always get plenty of candy ...just in case.

4 yr old Jack-o-lantern (while going around our little neighborhood with her parents), seemed to be calculating her options and said, "If I didn't have parents ...I'd trick-or-treat alll night."  I remember going out a lot longer but I grew up in a large neighborhood. 

After going around here ..they then went to the next town to visit their great grandmother and go around her neighborhood.  And then came back here for dinner.

I would think about going out for Halloween the entire day I was in school.  The only costume I remember was that I was Sylvester the cat ...and had to wear the awful plastic mask and could hardly see out of it.  It also got hot under the mask.  But I did love that costume.  Actually, I can't believe that even in second grade I could walk alone with a friend ...all over the neighborhood.  Our sons did not get to do that until much older.  Parents back then always said don't eat the apples until we check them because there could be razor blades in them.  Somehow ...I don't think parents had to worry about the apples when kids could be eating candy along the way and boy we sure did.  :)  Then ...after getting back in the house, it was always fun to empty the bags ..or pillow cases on the table to assess the collected sweet treasures.  I always gave away coconut filled candy and also Mary Janes.  Blech!

Well ...time to bring the blinking pumpkin inside.

And I can hardly believe that tomorrow is November 1st.  Wow.  Time sure does fly by.

And clocks go back this weekend.  Oh how I do LOVE the nights getting dark earlier this time of year.  And the excitement of the upcoming holidays.  Yay!  :)

Saturday, October 26, 2013

So True. :)

Before all the technology advances Aunt Janet used to say that dogs were reading the newspaper.  :)

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Jon Stewart's Take on the Application Process for the ACA :)

This is so funny.  Sadly based on truth.  But if you don't laugh cry.  This ...IMO hilarious.  Jon Stewart is always funny ...even when I don't agree with him.  Pacman at the end - FUNNY!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Diagnosis? (Update from previous posts)

I can't believe I don't know the diagnosis.  Guess I was just focused on arm movements and shots, etc.

Something about a calcium deposit that tells him there has been a strain for a while and is natures way of helping the situation.  But then something happened ..maybe swelling in between?  Anyway ...even tho I am really adverse to cortisone in my system ...I'm also adverse to horrendous pain and so I went for the big guns - 2 cortisone injections.  (There is more ease of movement although pain very much still there) Rest (no straining, lifting, pushing excessively) and when feeling better by end of week ...begin walk walks with my fingers while standing exercise to strengthen.

If I over do it ...I could inflame area again and to quote the Dr, "That would not be good."  Also ...something about surgery if I over do it and it doesn't heal properly.  So ...I will take it easy.  Maybe it is a blessing in disguise because I will use the time to focus on my business I want to open a web page for and get going with.  :)

Interestingly he described the only position I would be comfortable sleeping in with that diagnosis and he was correct.

I don't know how I am going to totally rest it since I do use my arms to get up if sitting really low.  I guess find other options.  I have been using other arm more but that is mildly aching and I told him and he said that is because I am compensating with it.

I was surprised both the m/a and he noticed I lost weight, since I gained SIX pound over the weekend.  yes I caved with eating comfort food Saturday and Sunday,  Some one else laughed today when I told her I gained six pounds in 3 days.  She said - that's not fat ...that's WATER weight!  Dug!  The comfort food did have more salt than I usually have.  I feel a bit better.  Also now that I know what the problem is I feel less stressed in one way and am back on track with eating better.

If you think of how some people will toss back a couple of drinks after a bad day, stressed ...whatever ...that is how I am with food.  Same thing - different substance.

But if ever I have the motivation to lose weight is NOW.  I almost feel like going to all liquid diet and lose fast.  But I also know that losing weight fast causes more loss of skin tone, muscle if not enough nutrients, and is a set up to regain the weight because you didn't retrain yourself with a healthier lifestyle.  I was doing really good until this weekend and will just go back to that.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

A SeaSpray Riddle (Hint - Orthopaedic Doctor, Fish and a SeaSpray :) And a Hospital Faith Story :)

Okay what is it that an orthopaedic doctor, a fish ...specifically ...the seasoned salmon kind of fish and a SeaSpray ...specifically a SeaSpray that smells of said fish ...specifically ...the seasoned salmon kind of fish ...what is it that they all have in common?  (Possible hint: previous post :)

I caved and as soon as I got up today, I called the ortho service.  You have no idea how resistant I was to doing this because I really did not want to go to the emergency department, but after the hellacious night of pain I had while trying to sleep and the pain was so bad in every comfortable position that I thought maybe in some crazy way ...I actually did break a bone and that was felt even through pain medication.  (Thankfully I've never broken a bone before and God forbid that I ever do)  It hurt so much that I actually invited (I know some of you won't understand) ...I actually invited JESUS to come stay with me and help me sleep.  I just kept repeating it and worked ..I fell asleep for a few hours.
Okay, I shall digress ...just a bit.  Let me explain.  Back in 2006, I had just finished a fictional book series and in the was so clear how well Jesus loves and knows everything about us (I already knew that), but it was so moving ...or at least it spoke to me in a such a profound way deepened my faith all the more. An epiphany moment of the soul. (Don't you just love it when passages in a book really speak to you if they come alive just for you?)  Also, back in June 2006 ...on the night that I was back in the ED, writhing in pain with 3 stuck kidney stones, vomiting and then also had gotten a MASSIVE Dilauded headache ...that book came back to me.  The nurse had just given me a cold cloth for my head and turned the lights down low in my room, and I had a basin resting at my side in case I became ill again. I was so ill - unable to keep anything down, in #10 uro pain and then also a hideous migraine level headache that I was desperate for it to be over with... and wished I could just fall asleep.  But then I remembered that book and so I quietly whispered at times, but mostly just repeated the invitation in my mind ...Jesus ..please come sit with me ...come sit on the stretcher ..please stay here with me.  (I know that sounds crazy to some - but I still believe it to this day)  I did doze a bit, but woke up ...feeling all those awful things again when they transported me upstairs and felt that way even in my room.  And so after the nurse left after getting me settled in for what was left of the wee hours of the morning ...I invited Jesus back again in exactly the same way I had down in the ED.  With the basin still at my side, I even patted the bed a couple of times while inviting him ...come sit here.  The next thing I knew was that the nurse came in to wake me and she also said, "You were do for your pain medication, but you were sleeping so well that I didn't want to disturb you."  And I got right up and was happily sitting up on the bed with my legs dangling over the side ...sans pain.  I still had to go to the OR though have another stent put back in for another 2 weeks.  That was the first urologist.  he had only put the fist stent in for 2 weeks and then just removed it the day before and that is when the remaining 3 tiny kidney stones got stuck in my ureter.  I assume they were pieces he missed after breaking up the first big stone.  Little did I know what I was in for 18 1/2 months later. C'est la vie.

So ...remembering that experience and feeling just as desperate last night, is why ...I again invited Jesus back to sit with me.  Hey is a comforting thought.  Maybe try it sometime if you are ever in a difficult situation like this. It's a good thing he's omnipotent ...being so busy and all.  :)

Unfortunately that the pain med wore off, I could hardly get OUT of bed because of the pressure on my upper right side to do so.  Coffee pot on.  Call to doctor's service.  Done!

Ahh for the answer to the riddle - I'm getting there.

My doctor's partner called back almost immediately.

He said bones are hard to break and he doubted that would be it.  He mentioned something about the bursa  ...muscle ...tendons ...I forget exactly.  He didn't know why the ONLY way I could sleep at all was to be on my back, elbow bent with my hand resting on my pillow and thought that should aggravate it more.  He said something about ice in passing, but I was more focused on not going to the ED ...unless I should.  Of course he couldn't tell me not to go, but we did conclude that I would be added into the office schedule sometime tomorrow.  After thanking him again, I said I was glad he wouldn't have to go meet me at the hospital and hoped he could enjoy his on call day.  He said they don't go in anyway and that they have some other ortho person go to the hospital.  Or ... maybe they are already there.  Not sure, but interesting.

After hanging up from the call, I proceeded to the fridge and upon opening the freezer, I thought ...
Ice?  Uh oh ...we used all the ice.  But there is that old bag of  seasoned salmon patties.  So I grabbed the bag of seasoned salmon patties, sat down and applied them (still in the bag) to my upper arm and shoulder.  They worked especially well because as the bag warmed up ...the patties divided into two halves, thus wrapped nicely around my arm and shoulder.  It worked so well  I began thinking ...this could be a prototype for some kind of ice wrap invention ...sans the fish. And what if it could also provide heat?  A SeaSpray can dream.  :)

But after awhile, I began to smell this fishy smell.  Then I realized there must be some tiny holes in the bag from getting knocked around in the freezer for the last 6 months ...or so and that as the bag warmed and the  ice crystals on the old ...thawing salmon melted, the fish ODOR was transferring ON to me. Lovely.

Anyway ...after all that, I don't feel as though the ice helped ease my arm/shoulder pain.  Conversely, the hot coffee that spilled on my shoulder yesterday actually felt better.  Although Bengay didn't help at all either.  I was too sore to stand in shower last night, but I HAVE to now because a. I still wreak of fish and b. because I have to be ready to get out the door ASAP in case the ortho office tells me to come in early.  Although the ortho doc did say they would of course always fit me in, but it would be later in the day because they are so busy in the morning.  BUT ...just in case ...I want to be ready to go and I will be there with bells on. Ugh ...I just had an awful thought.  What if he moves my arm all around or the x-ray tech makes me lift it or positions it in a painful way?  And another thought ...what if I have to get cortisone injections or med?  That is supposed to be bad for our bodies and stays in the adrenals for a year and can wreak havoc with blood sugar and can suppress your immune system.  Just saying.  Of course I will do whatever ...and I do mean ...whatever I have to do to heal.

By the way ...the irony of my needing 2 knee replacements and now having some kind of crazy arm injury when I NEED two good arms to do rehab for knees does not escape me.  So pain aside ...of course I WILL do whatever I have to do to heal.  And if it is true things come in threes ...then this is the end of ortho issues because now I have my third.  Two knees and an arm/shoulder.  DONE!

One last thing ...I really better get into the shower now ...because our cat is beginning to creep me out.  While licking his lips every so often and his tail a twitching ... he keeps STARING at me.  ;)

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Hurting Big Time!

50 Shades of Buffet: Comfort Food and Emotional Eating New Yorker Cartoon

Why?  OMG kind of pain!  I've been trying to avoid the ED all day.  I'm experiencing a 2 Percocet worthy pain.  Even more!  But I'm not going there.  I shouldn't be typing either.  I made a HUGE mistake thinking that maybe I was a bit better and I should NOT have let pain med lapse!!!  Playing catch up is no day at the beach.  And I now think I should've been TOTALLY ...COMPLETELY ...NO DOUBT ABOUT IT ...RESTING!

My doctors don't know yet because I've called nary a one, although I did fantasize about it earlier and thinking about it again if this doesn't let up.  I will HAVE to go to ER and I don't WANT to.  I am trying to hold on until Monday morning.

I have also decided that the 1st kidney stone pain is still my worst 10 pain and so this can't be a 10 pain or I would not be typing and I would not even be home ...I would be at the hospital.  But maybe there should be 3 categories of 10 on the pain scale.




Then I could say I was a 10.1 - the lowest 10 score.  I know, I know ...I can almost hear the collective response from medical people shouting back at me, "ONLY a TEN SeaSpray CAN'T go higher than TEN!  

Okay so I have a flare for the dramatic, but it hurts I tell you!   A visceral reaction on my part - I know.  And ...obviously if I'm typing is not a 10 of any kind. Not even a 10.1.

For any new readers, (sorry about repetition to regular readers :), my 10 and I pray I never experience any other kind to compare ...was a kidney stone ... a stuck kidney stone ...that even Morphine didn't relieve.  And as I've written before incapacitated me in such a way that I was unable to brush my teeth, do any grooming or even get dressed and then upon arriving at the hospital ... I banged and began sliding down against the early morning hours locked out patient doors.  That was my 1st and I hope last real 10.

But if there was a 9.1, 9.2 and 9.3 ...using the same logic (flawed ... I know), I am a 9.3.  I am so wrong to be typing now, but keeping my arm close to me.

I do not know why any of this is happening and don't feel like going into it now.  But suffice it to know that I don't even have knees right now ..not painful ones anyway.  And it is a good thing I just changed the November 5th knee replacement to January.  (That's another post)  I have been experiencing the worst and seriously incapacitating upper arm and shoulder pain since late last night. 

If anyone read this post to the end ...and ...if you feel so inclined .. and because there IS power in prayer ...please say a prayer that this will stop and spontaneously heal.  Or if I have to seek medical intervention that it will not be a big deal and can be easily remedied.  Mr SeaSpray said sometimes things just have to work their way out and that is what I am hoping for.  Thank you.  :)

I have been good all day but now... I am so craving comfort food!  Lots and lots of warm and tasty... just all kinds of yummy, satisfying food.  Foods that give that warm, fuzzy, safe ...not a care in the world feeling ...make the pain go away ...especially while eating in front of the TV ..and just zoning out ...and ...none of it would contain any calories and I could just keep eating and eating and I wouldn't even get full.  And it would be healing too. First food that came to mind was Thai food.  I don't know why.  I guess because I've been wanting to go to the Thai restaurant I heard about.  My second choice is a big bowl of hot stuffing, mashed potatoes and gravy.  No ...THAT is my 1st choice.  Haven't had any in almost a year.  Cheese cake.  Okay ..that's not hot ...but you have to have a comfort food worthy dessert after feasting on the basics in comfort food. Homemade mac and cheese.  Lasagna.  things with crust - like steak pie with lots of gravy. Apple pie.  Hot apple crisp.  fortunately I haven't gone food shopping as I had wanted to yesterday.   Chips and dip ..homemade dip.  Cheese doodles!  I don't know why ...but ever since I was a little girl instinct has been to eat whenever I feel sick or am in pain.  It works in the moment, but remorse always follows.  And I have recently been doing so well regarding weight loss.  That being said - I could easily gain 10 lbs in 2 days and then have to fight like heck for a lot longer to get it back off.  even if I have a cold ...I eat so much soup that I gain weight.  I really have to try to be strong right now because I do not want to undo the good I have accomplished thus far in the weight department.  I even noticed a difference with knee pain. I was finally feeling like I was back in control and going to really lose what I need to do and now feeling this way ..this pain and frustrated, etc ...I feel myself weakening ...motivation wise.  I guess I also ... no I DO need prayer to not undo the successes I have recently achieved.  That would be greatly appreciated if you did that too ...prayed for me to heal and to resist giving in to seeking comfort food right now and to keep losing weight.  Anyone who has ever struggled with weight ...knows the power food can hold over a person if that is their go to way of self medicating, understands my concern right now.  I suppose in one way it's also good that I am not up to cooking anything anyway.  This too shall pass.

The tea kettle is whistling.  Drinking bed time tea is my signal for no more eating the rest of the night.

Saturday, October 12, 2013

GOOOD Morning! :)

Strike a Vogue Pose

I haven't heard anything about the sleep study I did last week.  But, the tech did say she didn't see any sleep apnea moments. I figured as much.

Of course I had to tinkle after being all hooked up to everything.  I chuckled out loud, the first time I saw myself in the bathroom mirror.  Amusing for sure.  Also blackmail worthy.  A-n-d would be a great Halloween costume - sleep study patient.  :)

Anyway ...the next morning it was kind of weird when another sleep study patient and I got a look at each other.  This is because the tech left my door open while I was sitting on the bed, as she was removing the leads from my head, face and elsewhere.  I didn't think anything of it either ...until I saw a man come out of bathroom directly across from me ...sporting red boxer shorts, looking sleepy ...with messy hair ...and he saw me sitting there in my nightgown.  Fortunately, my nightgown was more like a feminine summer dress material, not clingy or see through.  No big deal I guess. 

Oh except the leads.  I'm pretty sure sporting those leads all over my face and in my gunked up hair thanks to the gooey stuff she used to attach them  ...with a  Breathe Right on my nose ...oh and sans makeup  ...wasn't my best look.  :)

Although sleep study standards ...I suppose I was a veritable fashion plate.  ;)

Thursday, October 10, 2013

omG!!! ...

Oh my GOD! ....she SHRIEKS in the morning shower after the sleep study.

The she ...would be me. 

So ..what happened, you ask?

Well ...the morning, (after the sleep study), while in the shower holding my head under water as hot as I could stand it, I was trying to work out the gummy stuff left on my scalp and in my hair that the tech used to apply the leads that record my brain information.  (cool btw- what they can see during the test)  She said hot water should dissolve it.  So after a bit, I decided maybe shampoo might aid in loosening the gunk.  Then there was a particularly large one stuck on my left upper scalp, near the top of my head in the back.  All of a sudden this big chunk comes loose and I panicked when I felt that it was also a big wad, chunk of hair which point ...envisioning a huge bald spot, I shrieked loudly ..."Oh my GOD!"  I still had to try to work it through my hair and I wondered if I was ripping even more hair out.  I was also trying to figure out what I could do to cover up the white scalp skin contrasting my dark hair.

Then ...I was afraid to look at what was now in my hand, until I realized I had only removed a wad of gauze she didn't remove, that was still stuck to the gummy stuff in my hair.


Did she make that for US?!" :) (Revised - added original pulled pork recipe)


I had planned to put a couple of pork roasts in the crock pot at 2am this past Sunday morning so that I could have the pulled pork ready for son's 25th birthday party being celebrated later that afternoon, but got a bit sidetracked when I decided that adding a certain salad to the menu would be nice too.  And this salad required crumbled cooked bacon.  Son also called to ask if he could bring two friends home to sleep over that he felt shouldn't be driving and I said it sounded like a good idea and I'll set up for them.

The bacon had been simmering on low for awhile when they walked in. I was in another room when I heard one of his friends exclaim, "BACON!  Did she make that for US?!"   Ha ha!  Sure ...I always make bacon when company walks in at 2:45 am.  Especially when I'm in the middle of cooking for a party. :) 

I also had been burning my breakfast candle because I haven't bought my fall candles yet and this candle smells like the best breakfast with everything cooking but the bacon ...except I happened to have been cooking that too.  Ha ha.  No wonder they were congregating at the stove.  Ha!  Even in the morning when older son drops the kids off ...if I have that candle burning ...he always looks over at the stove to see what I'm cooking.   It reminds me of cinnamon french toast, pancakes, and eggs.  (It's a really nice candle, that I buy from my friend Marlene's store - Marlene's Country Closet in West Milford, NJ. :)

So ...I walked into the kitchen in time to see him lifting 2 pieces right out of the HOT bacon grease and into his mouth and was going to stop him - but too late.  I don't know how he did not get burned ...I mean HOT GREASE and not even drained on a paper towel.  But he was alright.

Seeing how they were all standing around the cooked bacon ...I asked if they'd like me to make them breakfast.  They all said no, but their eyes said yes and so I said, "You know what?  I'm making breakfast for you.  Go and I'll call you when it's ready."
Honestly, I was so tired at that point and knees hurting because I had been shopping and up and about all day.  And if I hadn't sidetracked with making that involved salad, the pork would've been in the crock pot and I'd be in bed. That being said, I decided to surprise them with a full breakfast.

They were so surprised when they sat down to pretty table settings, with a full platter of cooked bacon and cheesy scrambled eggs along with sliced, buttered hard rolls that had also been toasted in the oven (jelly and apple butter on the table) and fruit cups, using the bowl of fresh fruit I had bought earlier.  The only thing missing was the juice and that was only because we didn't have any.   It warmed my heart when they each gave a hearty, "THANK YOU!", as they sat down.  I told them  they all seemed so hungry.  One of the friends said, "Yeah but nobody's ever done THIS before!"  I thought, Awww mission accomplished!   And one of son's friends wants to reciprocate with a surprise dessert and was asking me what we liked.  That was so sweet of him, no pun intended.  I had never met him before, but  he's obviously a thoughtful guy.

I think the best part was the gleam and surprise in son's eyes when I first offered to cook for them.  When he was still in high school, he told me his friends thought I was a cool mom.  Ha ha.  We just always opened our house up to their friends and fed them.  There were rules but it wasn't a Gestapo environment either.  I actually miss those days and so I suppose a little of that inspired me to want to feed them too.  Plus ...I just like doing those kinds of things for people.  But meant a lot to me to do this for son ...and his friends the moment too.

So ...while they were talking and eagerly eating up their breakfast, I finished preparing the food.  Needless to say ...I went to bed when the birds were rising.  The guys in the house woke up to the wonderful aroma of pork roasting.  Oh and son and his friends were so funny when they heard their would be pulled pork for the party.  The all exclaimed, "OHHH ... pulled PORK!", with manly excitement.  Even Mr SeaSpray looked like his eyes were glazing over with love once the carnivore in him saw the roasts on the platter. 

I also made a ziti and some other vegetable dishes.  And we had a fun afternoon celebrating our youngest son's 25 birthday.  Wow did a quarter of a century go by so quickly?  Seriously?  Seems like yesterday that I was holding him in my arms in the maternity unit while looking outside the window at the spectacular fall view.  So many flowers surrounding me, the pediatrician thought it looked like a wedding in there and visitors all wishing us a happy life filled with blessings.  So many blessings many milestones passed ...such joy raising him ...and now it's been 25 years.  Wow.

Thank you God.  :)
We loved this pork recipe - so easy and a keeper.

I have an oval crock pot and so I used 2 pork roasts since I couldn't find the size I wanted and because I wanted to be sure to have enough for company. Also added an extra onion and clove of garlic.  I didn't have cumin or kosher salt and so substituted sea salt.  It was so tender and delicious that the guys all kept coming by to take some wile I was separating it to put back in the pot. 

The following is the original recipe:

  • 2 medium yellow onions, thinly sliced
  • 4 medium garlic cloves, thinly sliced
  • 1 cup chicken stock or low-sodium chicken broth
  • 1 tablespoon packed dark brown sugar
  • 1 tablespoon chili powder
  • 1 tablespoon kosher salt, plus more as needed
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cumin
  • 1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1 (4-1/2- to 5-pound) boneless or bone-in pork shoulder (also known as pork butt), twine or netting removed
  • 2 cups barbecue sauce (optional)
  1. Place the onions and garlic in an even layer in the slow cooker and pour in the stock or broth. Combine the sugar, chili powder, measured salt, cumin, and cinnamon in a small bowl. Pat the pork dry with paper towels. Rub the spice mixture all over the pork and place the meat on top of the onions and garlic. Cover and cook until the pork is fork tender, about 6 to 8 hours on high or 8 to 10 hours on low.
  2. Turn off the slow cooker and remove the pork to a cutting board. Set a fine-mesh strainer over a medium heatproof bowl. Pour the onion mixture from the slow cooker through the strainer and return the solids to the slow cooker. Set the strained liquid aside.
  3. If the pork has a bone, remove and discard it. Using 2 forks, shred the meat into bite-sized pieces, discarding any large pieces of fat. Return the shredded meat to the slow cooker, add the barbecue sauce, if using, and mix to combine. If you’re not using barbecue sauce, use a spoon to skim and discard the fat from the surface of the strained cooking liquid, and then add 1/4 cup of the liquid at a time to the slow cooker until the pork is just moistened. Taste and season with salt as needed.

Friday, October 4, 2013

Forbidden Fruit -Fun at the Sleep Center :)

What I hope I look like in a few hours from now ...well sort of.   Cute, but not wrinkled a dreamy state of sleep.  Oh and maybe my legs shouldn't be straight up like that.  Would make for an interesting study though. ;)

...or something like that.

So ...of course today ...I wanted (still do), what I can't have.

And why is that?

What is it about humans ...many of us anyway ...that once we are told, "No.", THAT is exactly what we do want?

Post-it : Forbidden Apple

So ...what is this forbidden fruit she speaks of, you ask?

Coffee ...specifically Keurig's fabulous Pumpkin Spice coffee.  But even beyond that ...COFFEECOFFEECOFFEE all I have wanted all day ...a-l-l day.  And ...I did kind of inadvertently drink more beyond ...high noon.  On a normal day - it wouldn't have mattered.  Here is where the justification came in to play tho was just one of the sleep ctr people telling me not to drink coffee past noon.  But when I printed out the instructions ...and there were many ...including wash your head ...there wasn't any mention of restricting coffee.  I rest my case ...assuage my guilt ...well sort of ..with the guilt thing.

Hmmm ...I'm thinking this doesn't bode well ...that my whizzie winkles at 7:pm reek of coffee. (I know - TMI) This is not at all the norm for me.  Must because I was so engrossed in doing the War and Peace version of pre-admission medical forms, that I sipped it way too long ..even tho it did get cold. And the few business calls in between.

And the other forbidden thing ...a NAP!  Heck ...I wanted a nap as soon as I opened my baby blues this morning ...just because I knew they said naps.  And as I was making the bed was like a magnet drawing me in, like an insect into the spider's web.  I actually have avoided the bedroom and all comfortable furniture today.  Or ..this non napping SeaSpray would've napped. 

So ...this SeaSpray ...did taste of the forbidden fruit Keurig Pumpkin Spice coffee much as she could this morning.  3 12 0z cups ...although I never finished one because I always end up doing something and come back to it cold.  So ...technically 6oz per cup or so.  Like smokers that leave their cigarettes burning - that is how I am with drinking anything... usually, anyway.

However the forbidden part came after high noon.

And I caved ...I justified ...until I could justify no more.  Now maybe if I could've taken a NAP ...I wouldn't have minded the coffee ban.  Mind you ...I n-e-v-e-r rarely take naps.  But today was forbidden ...and so ...of course ...I have been craving a nap all darn day ...even now ...I want a nap.

So ...what's the big deal you ask?

SLEEP STUDY tonight!

I waited too long to print and fill out all their forms and I am finally down to the last one.  There are so many questions I am now wondering if this sleep center is in cahoots with the never ever invasive IRS. ?  ;)

 I still have to shower and I hope that doesn't wake me up. (I think it will tho) They said something about having a clean head in their instructions.  Well ...I'm going for the whole clean body/head package.  Why wouldn't they just say ...take a shower everyone? Clean head?  So weird sounding.  "Wait ..I can't go yet - I still have to clean my head!"  :)

And no body creams.  If there is ever a pre-surgery, pre-test  medical rule I am tempted to break is not slathering on luxurious ...pretty scented lotions and creams.  Again's a girl thing.  Of course (I've written this before), at 24 ...I and my hospital roommate, slathered on Keri lotion which is so thick and greasy and we put it all over our bodies ...after showering before going to the OR.  (This old hospital actually had a large community shower to use before going in the OR)  We had to be glistening for that OR because Keri lotion always gave that greasy shine to skin. I'm surprised we didn't slide away from them ..or maybe we did.  ;)

And I am bringing my own fabulous, best pillow in the world ...that I bought from Sleepy's this past summer.  And they are putting a fan in there for me.  A SeaSpray has her demands.  If I have to comply - THEY have to comply.  I am kidding - of course ...yes ..I am ..kidding.  ;)  My PCP said he wants me to do whatever I normally do when I sleep.  My first thought was - I don't know what I do when I sleep ...because I am SLEEPING when I sleep.  But I thought better of saying it.  Seriously tho - Mr SeaSpray and I sleep with a box fan every night.  he calls it  his sea breeze.  I think of it more as flying in a B-52.  I'm so used to that sound.  I hope there fan isn't one of those whisper quiet fans.

It's so weird knowing they will be watching and listening while you sleep ...and I am guessing awake.  Oh joy ...they get to watch me doing my ...time to make the donuts tinkle walk to the bathroom in the wee hours of the morning.  And knowing how some medical staff conversations can go ..or bets can be made, etc., I wonder what they do to amuse themselves all night?  Nope - don't want to know.  :)  And I made sure I've had nothing gassy - just covering my bases.

For the record - I pretty much don't think this test is necessary, but PCP wants to do it before clearing me for knee surgery.  So a SeaSpray's gotta so what a SeaSpray's gotta do.

Well ...I have to go pack now.  I know I am already bringing too much.  It's a girl thing.  We always bring our in case I need items.  Part of me feels like driving in in my PJ's ..ready for bed.  What could go wrong with that plan?  I am having a baked potato at 9pm.  Partly because I didn't eat enough today and partly because I hope the starch makes me drowsy by the time I sleep.  And I am having it with my Bedtime tea that I have been drinking every night instead of eating.  Hopefully that will settle me too.

I am so not in the mood to do this ...but I'll just think of it as a kind of pajama party with the girls.  I guess there could be male employees, but I think of it as only women working there.

Well ...sweet dreams everyone.  :)

PS ..Oh Gee!  Ha ha!  I guess I am tired.  I read the instructions wrong.  They didn't say wash your head. They said take a HEAD SHOWER!  I just kept picturing everyone only washing their head.  Ha Ha ha!  They also say excellent beds and mattresses with pillows for your convenience. (I'm glad they think pillows are convenient.), in state of the art decorated rooms.  Now ...I'm curious.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Apple Orchard Time

Her first class trip - to an apple orchard.  :)

It reminds me of our boys making the same trip while in preschool the same orchard.  :)

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

First Do No Harm?

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These would be fun to give to the dentist.  Check out other creative cookies (great ideas), from this website HERE.

Wow ...I never knew it could be this good the dentist ...even though my new dentist is doing all the same annoying ..frightful things that the other dentists have done.  Except with his hands ...there just isn't anything painful ...not even the Novocaine.  Not the drilling, pushing, pulling, probing ..none of it hurts.  Not only that ...and I still chuckle at this ...with a good measure of wonderment too ...I truly look forward going to the dentist.  And I have DREADED that my entire life because I've always been sensitive ...probably overly sensitive.  And the fear comes from all the times that hygienists or dentists do something that just zings you in a painful way.  Not in this office.  This dentist IS the poster dentist for wanting to go back to the dental office again.

I also have the utmost trust in him and want to refer the world to him.  Not that he needs it ..but he is just that good.  I even like how he discusses things ..teaches even. He's gracious, kind, supportive and obviously SKILLED.

I know I keep saying I want to write what I feel the former dentist did wrong and there is just so much ...I have to get in the mood.  But I will ...and then I am going to use the post to refer to when I write him a long letter.  Which will begin with thanking him for the good things, .i.e., care in the first decade with him.  I will compliment his staff and office.  But the latter part while it will not be filled with angry accusations ...I most definitely will be itemizing all the times he withheld care ...even tho I repeatedly expressed frustration and concern and more.  And it will mention how he destroyed my trust in him ..which is sad because I had really liked him and the care he initially gave.  There will be a lot.  And I will n-e-v-e-r be able to recommend him to anyone.  While I won't go on a crusade to trash him ...I will be honest if someone brings up his name and are thinking of going to him.  Frankly ...I wonder if I am doing the wrong thing for NOT reporting him in writing to our previous plan. ???  But I am not out to hurt him.  Although ...he sure didn't consider what was good for my dental care.

While again discussing the difference in care with the new dentist ...I ended it with I feel like I have been violated through omission of care.

The reason this came up is because of the stark contrast in results after being with this dentist only since August.  And as soon as he stepped into the room with me I eagerly and gratefully told him how I no longer had the problem that I continually complained about in the other office (there were many) and could hardly believe it and with all my heart ...THANK YOU!

And his work is so much better too.

I take care of my teeth.  Brush, floss, and mouthwash.  But a few teeth were beginning to break on the inside and this other "dentist", would always say ..."Why don't we wait on that."  And I admit I was slow on the uptake because I did trust him and figured he knew best.  Although ...admittedly ...I was feeling like something wasn't right either.  Last spring - 2012, was the final straw.

I am so serious about sending him a letter, that I may spend the money and send it certified so I know he gets it.

And after I do that ...I will let it go.  I will forgive.  I am trying to now ...but I have to say what I think first.  My orthopaedic doctor thought my idea was good and it might help future patients.  I told this dentist too and he said it was a good idea, but if my goal is to help other patients be careful how I choose my words.  I can do that.  I know to keep things in "I" statements and I never call people names and so that won't be a problem.

I really feel I was wronged as a patient.

Today, I even asked this dentist if dentists have a code of ethics and he said we could talk about that, but then our conversation went ortho later.  I am guessing that since they are doctors they took the Hippocratic oath first and then dentists must have their own.

To be continued ...

One more thing ...I guess he didn't respect me either.  because he obviously ignored my concerns and requests.  And if we had not been able to get this other insurance after Mr SeaSpray retired ...I would not be able to afford the major work I am getting done now that could've been fixed when I was the other dentist's patient and still had the insurance.  Just saying.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

The Last Sunday in September

Fall foliage in Stokes Forest
OH ...what a BEAUTIFUL Sunday!  As soon as I walked into the kitchen this  morning, I was taken with the already bright fall colored leaves on the trees across the street.  I think the autumn leaves in this area are going to be spectacular this year.  Boy is it baking time with all the plentiful apples around.  I'm making an apple crisp today.  I like this one because it has the oat crust on the bottom and on top.  And our older granddaughter stayed overnight last night and is here right now.  We talked into the wee hours of the morning.  I LOVE that I get girl talk time with her.  :)  And I love that I get her for the whole day today too.  :)

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Interesting Stress Management :)

Ha ha! I've always liked bubble wrap.  It's hard to resit pressing, twisting, and or stepping on it.  My favorite though ... rolling over it with an office chair.  :)

Friday, September 27, 2013


This house is baby proofed.  I am also very careful to always check everywhere just before the little ones come over to make sure nothing has been left out.  Last night, just before bed after washing up in the bathroom I put nail polish remover and two cold medicine bottles at the top of the bathroom closet.  I am careful about these things with a capital "C" and yet as I've written previously ...I had a few occasions (ahem) call POISON CONTROL.  Yeah ...I began wondering if I should continue giving out my zip code.  I didn't, anticipate their chewing on the toilet bowl brush, eating eyeliner pencils, sucking on my high heel that had been all over the ER/hospital the night before, munching on a house plant and a few other surprises.

So ...this morning I was at the sink washing some vegetables for our pot roast crock pot dinner when I heard little 32 month old M call out, "Mum mum!  Keaning?"



"I don't understand ..what?"

And then I looked more carefully to see he was putting his finger on the nozzle of the cleaning bottle that was in the carrier I use to conveniently carry cleaning supplies from room to room.  Oh NO! NOT POISON CONTROL again.  Someone ...Left the cleaning caddy on top of their big toy basket and then a folded blanket had been tossed on top of it.  Suffice it to know I would never place a clean blanket over a cleaning caddy filled with products and used cleaning rags.

Drying my hands and hollering out to him in the next room, "Wait M ...DON'T touch that!  Did you touch that?!"  


"Come right over here please!"

And he did.

"Did it spray on you?"


Where?  (I didn't see anything on him)  It was a bottle of Murphy's oil that I haven't used in ages and just leave it in there.  He pointed to his eye.

So ...I began sniffing his fingers, face and eye.  (So primal.  Btw - he is now AGAIN coming down with another cold and has a runny nose and there I was ...right up to him ...breathing right near his face to see if I smell the product.  I didn't.  Also ..while he did rub his eye a bit, it wasn't red or irritated.  So I just took a very wet paper towel and wiped his eye and the another one and squeezed some water over it.  (He's been fine.)  But then he was in this inquisitive touching mode ...quickly going from one thing to the other in the kitchen ...asking, "What's this, what's this?", and so on.  He went on the other side of the counter ...asking, "What's this?", as he plunged his fingers onto the RAW pot roast.

"M! STAY there! Don't TOUCH anything else!  Don't touch yourself ...don't touch ANYTHING!"  He froze in position and I wanted him to because I didn't want him to touch his face or potentially contaminate anything else ...because of the raw meat exposure.  (I admit, I am fanatical about safety precautions regarding raw meat and poultry, etc., but evidently never anticipated a young child being able or even wanting to reach it.)  So, I washed his hand with a warm soapy cloth and dried it and then in frustration ...admonishing him ...I blurted out, "M ...I don't want you touching ANYTHING!  No touching this meat!  NO touching anything else!  You CAN touch your knees, your hair and your TOYS!  But NO touching ANYTHING else!  CAPISH?!


We hugged and he ran off to play.  (Gosh ...I love that sweet ...precious little guy soooo MUCH!:)

I never said I was being rational.  :)